Monday, July 9, 2007

"I.....Errrrrr......Ummmmmm.....Sure....Thank you "





“This could get disappointing for you, but I’m afraid your performance has not been up to the level of expectations”. There is a punch of scorn in his statement.

“Errr….ummmmm…..” , Shit, What am I hearing ? !!

“You should understand that to pace up with the rest of the team, which I must say is efficient in every way, you have to be more, much more aggressive “ .

“Err….ummm…..” Aggressive? Should I go blast you for keeping me overloaded all the time ?

“But I believe, every one has got his or her own low rides. I trust you will learn from your mistakes” He is trying to keep himself stern yet friendly. But I know he’s NOT friendly. But it doesn’t matter. I must say something !

“Err…....ummmmm…”

“Would you like to know what are the key areas you can improvise up on? “ He has his
eyebrows raised.

Is he expecting me to answer ? Honestly I don’t want to know. Why the hell would I have you tell me what my weaknesses are ! Ohh God, I want to say No, Mr.Boss, No, okay ? I don’t want to know !!!

“Yea, sure, That’s exactly what I want to know “, I have no idea what is flowing out of my tongue .

“Good, point no: one, you need to draw out a specific timeframe for your work. You can think of coming in, well, a little early so that you find time to complete your tasks”

Xcuse me ? Come in early ? Right, but in that case, I suppose I must be able to head back home at least by midnight. You don’t like me walking out before you do anyways and that’s not until your laptop shows you a zero-charge indicator. You don’t like people having a life of their own. You don’t like me taking breaks at work. You don’t like ME !!!!

“well, err…..actually ….” Come on, say something.


“Sandhya ?”

Shhhhhheeeeeeeeesh !

My imagination sometimes could get annoyingly speedy when it comes to scenarios where am most likely to lose.

I turn back and am sure I look like I have just unknowingly gulped down a chunk of dung. But who cares, that’s how I feel totally.

My boss looks perplexed to see my face sweat in an air conditioned room.

“All set ? Let’s go for the appraisal discussion” Only HE can smile.

“Absolutely ! “, I manage a smile and follow him maintaining the curved-lip , like having an appraisal discussion is the coolest thing of my job.



14 comments:

chronicwriter said...

keep the upward curve intact.. i am lucky.. my boss reads my blogs... hehe... he is the best boss i can have( boss! where ever you are!! come and read this comment... i have my performance appraisal this week)

PurpleHeart said...

And am lucky MY boss doesn't read my blogs !! hee hee !

Anju said...

haha...yeah which is why I left out a lot about my old work place. I had good bosses but at the same time, there were times when you feel "arrggh"!!!

Smi said...

i very much get reminded of 'OUR' appraiser and our after appraisal discussions:)

PurpleHeart said...

Anju, Bosses are most of the time good. But they suddenly can get really really hostile !

Smith, Ours is truly an 'inspiration'..hee hee !

ScRiBbLeR said...

All bosses are VERY typical.
Between be careful or you might be
dooced!!
:)

Devil's Advocate said...

smone wrkin hard with the wrds..he he he.. east or waste my boss is #%@& he he he..

PurpleHeart said...

Gomathy, the very word 'dooced' ran a chill down my spine...but it's ok, I mean, what I feel is what I feel.

Devil's advocate: Who's working hard with words ?

PurpleHeart said...

By the ways, this was just a weird imagination of any appraisal discussion. It wasn't exactly in reference to my experience at work ! Thanks for the comments, though.

ScRiBbLeR said...

Sandhya!
That was just a reference that clicked seeing your post.
Didnt mean to frighten you.. :)

Bungi said...

I like the way we do appraisals where i work. At least the way my boss does mine. It is very non-threatening.

PurpleHeart said...

Gomathy,it's fine and I just expressed my immediate reaction to the word 'Dooced' .

Bungi, That's really refreshing to know !

Devil's Advocate said...

gomathy is working hard with words.. he he he..
and u was wrking hard with appropriate words during ur appraisal meet.. he he he :D

PurpleHeart said...

ohh...Yea !